Feed me...

okie day 12 of recovery, feeling much better....i can sit =) and lay properly in bed =)
the wound is still fresh and reddish though...
okok! i was in the bus day dreaming again...i'm so excited for chinese new year...and then my BIRTHDAY! chinese new year just means one thing - I'm going to gain back waht i've lost this pass weeks...Suckling PIG! BAH KWA! and all the junk! i love it...=) ANYONE! feed ME!!! and not forgetting playing cards! this time...i'm going to win...=) i can feel the lucky aura already...hahaha

and yes my birthday...to help u guys out there...i've decided to write a list of things i want..=)for now...all i can think of is a wallet! haha...i know i'm nice..

miss wan lilin tried to assinate my ass yesterday...yes! with her handbag! imgaine....at least she's nice enough to treat me starbucks! china town very very soon! promise!

good night everyone! =)

Affairs of the heart...

okie..it's day 9...the wound is till raw and reddish...but it's healing well...no infection =)
my butt has been living like a king this pass 9 days...dun ask me how i remove my bowels...
but trust me...it's nasty...blood, screams...etc..
really thank God for nurses...they are such patient and caring people...
have been eating porridge, vegetable and fish this few days...i need MEAT badly...and so nice of tracy..she can actaully msg me and tell me she's eating KFC... dun tempt me...before i eat myself...

thanks for everyone who showed me so much care this pass few days...a simple msg is very encouraging...a big thank you...sigh...how can i do without you guys...=)

oh yes..i'm so boney now...i feel so weak...everyday, i lay on my sofa watching dvd's, reading 8-days...which is juicy with gossips...haahhaa...
anyway...today was the mock emergency exercise...i think it's really cool to have such thigns in singapore...they even have people complaining to counsellors and everything...of course they are just acting..but i think they make it really real...Rock on Red Dot!

my mum was in the kitchen baking cookies, i was there nosing around..when she jokingly said..."next time i want to go old folks home, i dun want anyone to take care of me"
then my sister said " old folks home is soo boring, you will get bored to death there" my mum replied " i can stay there and baked cookies, so nice, so peaceful" and i replied..."okie, i lend you my -ipod"

hahaha...i really said that..but i was joking la..hahaa oh yes! i just watched the ren-ci charity show...AMAZING! they manage to raise 6.8 million and counting, exceeding thier target by 1.8 million..u know..sometimes i'm really so proud to be a singparean...it just show's how passionate people we are...we may be kiasu, rude and wahtever...but when it comes to affairs of the heart...we give...one thing the celebrity said stuck me..." let's this charity, be an issue between you and the patients, and nothing else" tsk tsk..simple words with big meaning..

okie...and yes..today i din't go church because u know...i passed my course! finally after so long....some people laugh at me becasue i took so long to finish my course...i've been in this church for so long...and like fianlly i passed....oh well...laugh all you want!
believe me...it's not that i don't want to pass...but many things happen this year...and it held be back...okok..i shan't elaborate...there's no use explaining...it's between me and God..and my close friends know...and surprisingly, my cloeset firneds aint' from my church...so...

sorry for the lengthy post again..take care...
i'll be going back to school tomrow...i relaise if i take my full 21 days mc..it will be too late to catch up...take care..

God Bless,
Tocky...

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Happy new year!

update on my royal ass*
okie for 21 days i have to see doctor everyday to get my dressing changed **tracy...go study...no need to add anything here...muahah
21 days mc...but i probably go to school next week...
and guess what guys! i can finallyt sleep with my ass facing the bed !!! woot!
i miss meat..immidiately once i recovered i'm running staight to the buffet table...join me!
the good news! chinese new year is coming! and i'll recover just in time for it! i wana go china town buy all the sweets and my goodness BAH KUA!!
i was in deep pain the other day, and i was complaining to God...of all places...my ass is pain...whywhywhy!!!
suddenly something whoosh passed my mind...it reads... "Count your blessings, name them one by one"

Happy new year!!
okie so, a brand new year with a fresh new start,
old thigns are passed away, i pray each one of us will continue to live life to the fullest, and always remember,
God loves you...

love, Lionel...

My royal ass...

okok, singapore hottest royal ass is back...wanted to blog ages ago, but due to some unforeseen butt circumstances...etc..let me explain...christmas eve was crazy! cousin's came, had turkey with bacon and cheastnut stuffing, chocoloate moouse, cheescake, quich lorraine, ham, and loads more, and the usual tradition of dancing around the christmas tree, this time, we sang 12 days of christmas...then the opening of presents! again our tradition to open presents from the oldest to the youngest! haha...okay christmas day, church, then went to peter's house...his mum cooked the mouth washing mutton! and duno what jelly thingy, like kueh chap, tons of finger food, and muruku..=) later had lamb leg in the evening...tsk tsk..totally fat-out..

okie now, the tsk tsk...the shocker of the year...many of u should had got an introduction in tracy's blog...and desperate to know the story of my royal ass...On the 30th of december, i got admitted to SGH for collectaral surgery! i won't explain in detail wats that in case u faint in front of your computer of heart attack...the story goes on, i was pushed to the operating theatre just like you see in televisions, and given GENERAL ANESTATIC..before that, i said a short prayer, and told the surgeons just before they knock me out " my ass is in your hands" when i woke up...voila! operation done...=) and guess what! the gang was there to see me! fat neo was probably there to see if i'm dead, tracy to see if she gets my will...hahahaha...no snow bird nest. =*( the guys were talking to me till abt 11.30pm...missy was rather pissed i guess..=P a day in the hospital seemed like a year...ultimately boring sleeping in a room with 5 old man...on my left, he has something wrong with his tummy, never eat for 5 days he claimed, on my right was this man who keeps yelling at mr.missy he has some leg injury...it was really funny to see him scoulding in hokkien..hahaha...in front of me there's this man whose very heavy & refuses to eat, far right was this man who has hearing impaired, far left, i duno what happen to him, he keeps coughing flam..and yes me the youngest patient around- with my fat ass getting operated...tsk tsk...serisouly everyone..dun ever have an ass operation, it's very very very inconvenient...u have to trust me....and so my christmas present from SGH, dozens of ultra powerful painkillers, 6 enormous tubes of local anestatic, a box of fibre thingy and a whooping 21 days of mc...not forgetting free gifts from missy- 3 packets of bandages, 1 tape and 2 cloths in case i stain my home sofa...i smell like a walking panadol now...oh yes! another shcoker...missy is the same age as me!!! thank God she never sponge me, or i'll have to wear a mask everywhere i go...

oh yes! believe or not, they actually brought our project work for discussion with me...imgaine that...and they bullied me by planning where they wanted to go watch movie and stuff...tsk tsk...black eye peas!! may i ask.."where is the love"?!?! hahaha...

okok, i think the medincine is making me go insane...any of u guys feeling bored, lonely nothing to do...need some company...er hem...what is my royal ass here for! come talk to me...
*i have to quit the river raft race, so there goes all my hardwork, and my prize money...well..life is unpredictable... =( Lord help me...

love,
tocky..

laughter the best medecine....

hmm....5 more days to chrismas! and 11 more days to the new year...and a step closer to the end of my teenage year...my early twenties..hmm....i wonder how old am i going to get married... =P...i'm almost done with my christmas shopping...antoher trip or 2 down to town and i'm done...=) nicee...to be in town at this time of the year, carols, songs, buskers, and the indespensible hohoho's...

a few updates...my raft is completed! after months of hard work... so everyone! remember to support me in janurary for the river raft race!

thanks for those who voted for qing shun's video clip, he din't win =( but well i'm sure he learnt alot from this compeition yeah? oh yes! Whew! i passed my test in church! 25/50!!! my goodness....coz i comepletely whacked the memory verses...=P..pamela got like 31/50...lucky!

Okie now the angry part! was eating at GREAT WORLD CITY foodcourt after church on sunday...it was pam brother's belated birthday, so the cake, the candles,and after eating, my friend wanted to throw the flattened birthday cake box into the dustbin...duh...and guess what the cleaner scoulded her and told her not to throw...he asked her to throw it somewehre else....??? what on earth is the dustbin for may i asked if not to throw rubbish? an ornament for christmas? it was comepletely absurd! first time i heard a dustbin not allowed to throw rubbish...i would understand if it was somehting bulky...but it was jsut a small flattened cake box...and Yes! u may have guessed it...i was so angry...i took the cake box...and threw it into the dustbin, without bothering what he said...he stared, mumbled few words...but i din't care...
bring the manager to me if he dare...hundreds of church people eat at the foodcourt every weekend...and not allowed to throw a miserable cake box into thier dustbin??? TOTALLY RIDICULES!

Lord, strengthen my heart this christmas....it would be the best christmas present...

tocky...

all i want for christmas

i wonder if u guys can hear the blog song, i can hear the song using laptop, but not my desktop..i wonder why...anyway for thsoe who can hear the song...

I CARE ABOUT PRESENTS UNDER THE CHIRSTMAS TREE HORR...

Once the vote is counted...the decision is final...etc..

everyone! qing shun's short film made it to the finals for Cannon DV fest competition please vote for the clip name"parting Gift"
http://www.canon.com.sg/dvfest/vote/bestfilm/audience.htm

qing shun...i help u publicise...this will be your christmas present...
recently have the news on australia have racial conflicts...i wanted to talk about it in my post...but incase i get into touble with the law for some racial comments..i better keep my mouth shut...it only needs one person to disagree with my post and the whole world will know...

anyway..thank God for Singapore...i'm kinda proud living in multi racial singapore.. ;) beat that Australia! rock on! red dot!

Psalms 23:6

okie!! firstly! Happy 18th Birthday TrACy WaN! finally turned 18 when everybody's coming 20..hope u enjoyed yur birthday and like all yur presents!! i still can't stop laughing thinking rachel did the robot dance..hahaha..okok remember everyone!! my birthday's next la!!! woot!!! that's waht i like about my birthday-not long after chiense new year when everyone has no reason to say they're broke...hiak hiak...each one present..no excuse...=)

this whole week i have 5 greulling exam papers...i must do well!! my gpa must hit a 3.5 this time...for the sake of my $20k/month salary in the future...i must do well!! please pray for me..

oh yes, i've been blading alone this few days..at bishan park...i din't know it can be quite relaxing, listening to my ipod while the cool wind at night just swerve pass...=) i'm going to try it at night at east coast one day... ;) i realise i've became lighter la! i was 72kg...and now i'm 69kg!
hmm...but i duno accurate or not because i weigh myself using those 40cents machine...which comes out a card with a phrase behind...

after exams...shopping all the way..no stopping me...=) oh yes..
today church was fine..took my test...i hamtum all the memory verse down because i coudn't remember a think...the structured question was bleah...

took out the newspaper cutting of blenheim when he passed away...sigh...on top of his name was this verse..."Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever"psalms 23:6 i suddenly felt again all the times we had gone through, all the jokes, all the one for all, all for one stuff...
the words in hold held so much meaning to my heart...the goodness of God and his mercy will surely be with me...this was so much an assurance to me that God will never ever leave me suffering so badly...God always has a reason..Blen's death is one reason why i still hold on to God...apart from God...i want to see u again kai...no way, i'm going to let go...not even for a thrillion dollars to forget God...see u soon...when my time is up...hang on everyone...the day is about to come...Live life to the fullest...treasuring, loving the people around u...
i realise that the simplest thigns in life is the rarest...many people enjoy the fun and happening life...but few are able to accept simple things in life....

take care everone...
remember, blessed is the man who is used by God...

the road is long, but my heart will go on...

okie! it's been centuries since i last posted...i have no idea what to write already...
alot of sad thigns happen...=( just put all it behind me...
okie, anyway, i've decided to work extra harder for
my exams...because i heard that u must average a 3.5 gpa every semeseter
to secure a place in NUS...-_-!!! 3.5 leh...
natalie's birthday is coming, hope you'll like the present i bot u godsister! =)
it's nothing big...but still quite big la...

went orchard on saturday, with a whole group of gang...including a self invited "BETRAM LOO"...okok i shan't elaborate what he did...in case the ambulance come...
wanted to buy a shoe i saw online, i saw it at pacific plaza...but to my horror...it doesn't have my size...-__-...

okie my christmas wish list...
hmm...okok, i decided nt to write down...i shall see who knows me best...
who wants to do christmas shoppign with me??

reindeer pooper!

okie, i finally decided to type soemthign after so long of melting...
yesterday was blen's mum birthday, and we guys had bbq...lamb, beef, prawns, sting ray, salmon, fried rice, salad, chicken wings, and!! my fav...CRAB! i just love crab..

before i go on to say anything! believe it or not everyone..i fell down a hill...it was my regular and most convenient shortcut, but this time round, the owner decided to fence it up, and the smart me, thinking i was some bird, jumped over and tripped...and rolled don'n the hill...of course i bleed...

i just came back from pasa malam, could not get what i was looking for..=( so i bot myself a nice coconut...


okok, update tormow again
my eyes are shutting

take care, tocky

Santa Clause!

i've been wanting to put back my song...but i'm too lazy...
went to ochard alone to walk around today after school....and yes
the christmas mood rekindle my heart again...soo many people today
guess it's because of the holidays...aww...

dun worry everyone! i'm fine... ;) i'm still breathing...ohyes,i've decided to change this blog skin it's too dull already...stay tune...

...

Lost soul...

Bring me back...

go away!

i'm beggining to like fast and pumpy music...punk cover!
alot of people have been commenting that i have bad taste of songs...especially peng soon...
he says all my songs are old and sound so bad...and he would never listen to songs which i listen...
tell u what shawn...i dun care what u think....because, this is how i am, and this is what i like...

to everyone:
so what if i'm different, so what if i don't club, so what if i don't always drink alcohol, so what if u think my life is boring, so what if u think i'm the most pathetic guy, so what if i listen to christian songs...SO WHAT !! i don't give a crap whatever u guys think of me...because this is who i am...if u can't accept me for who i am...then just go away...

maple! thanks for the card...it was really nice..and i know u meant every word on the card...i hope that is not my christmas present....of i would jsut drop dead...thank u also for even giving me this opportunity to be your godbrother...you may not be my real sister...but i will always treat u like my little sister...i pray and hope this relationship will strenthen eachday...i'm glad i survived the jog with you...jog with u when i go again kie?
life is full of unexpected and saddening things, but it's all part of it...remember? there are always 2 sides in life...take care arh...

okie this had been in my heart for a super long time...and i'm just going to blurt everything out...alot of people have been telling me off..."since u know so much about relationships, why u never get yourself a girlfriend? " "why u talk so much about it, but u yurself don't have a gf" "are u chicken" "is it because u scared"
i won't give u my answers, because i feel it's not necessary...i dun care whatever u guys think...because i know the answers in my heart
guys..please stop cheating and playing with girls feelings...

.....

Zzzz

okie, i'm all alone in the computer lab doing my project in school..waiting for kien tat to passed me his hard disk...-_-.. though wednesday classes lasts for only 5hours...it's 5 hours of cauculations, more cauculations and even more cauculations... buisness students do more theory, and wished they had some hands on cauculations...whereas engineering students wants more theory because we have too much cauculations...sigh..

my sister is off to genting today with her friends...so lucky!! but well she deserve the trip la,
stress untill like that...tsk tsk....enjoy yourself pam! i have everythign necessary...except...hahaha...

was talking to my mum last night, i told her "when i'm outside, u siad why i always go out,
when i'm home, u ask me how come i keep using the computer" ...haha..then she added on "how i wished instead of calling me telling me you are in orchard, u tell me " mum, i'm in the library"
i laughed at said "wait long" haahaha....

okie, i have to start my work now..take care...
boring day...no movies =( everyone's busy =( no dvd =( no window shopping =(
tocky

=)

okie...looks like i can never go on a diet...i had 2 meals in school today...over my $1 budget by $3
i just can't bare to torture my bouncy tummy...i could almost hear it screaming for food today...
it's becoming rounder and soft..haha..it has a rippling effect when hit...imgaine..=)
okok, i shan't expose my assets...the choosen girl will have to discover it herself..hahaha..
i'm crazy..

and yes..i was watchign televition today again and i started dreaming...
i somehow like to watch those house makeover...i can just imagine myself designing and building my own dream house...by the sea of course..i'm going to have this nice warm jacuzzi outide the big garden, how nice to soak inside a hot tub with your love, looking at stars at night...then a nice barbeque pit, when the gang come, we can just chill, by the sea (of course our wifes will do the bbq) hahaha... in the bed room will be this super comfy and soft mega king size bed with comforters of course! it will be like super cozy and warm...haha...okok, i cannot share too much in case someone steal my idea...

tracy!-yes...say goodbye to the bouncy castle...the arnold "sworldsonager" is here..hahaha
your dream birthday is approaching... =)
maple-elton more important then your godbrother...u win...i jealous... -_-
phillane!- happy baptism!! rock on!
jun xiong-please i beg u...no more macdonalds...
qing shun-one life, one heart, shed blood not tears...to hold and never let lose...
kien tat- i hope u finally give the present to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ...
jessican tan-you are the slowest girl i ever met in my entire life...u need 3 legs...
peter selvan-which cave did u went hiding again...

God bless,
Tocky

back!

okie, finally i decided to upate my blog after so long, i was soo lazy...and with the influence of Tracy's blog...okie, i'm so excited for christmas...hohoho...i can feel it coming..
the cold and wet days...the smell of bacon and chesnut stuffing in turkey, the christmas tree, the foam snow, the songs and YES! the presents...this year i'm only giving to close freinds...of course, very special few will have an additional presents hahaha...start savign! believe it or not, i'm goign to sacrifice my beautiful tummy...i'm only going to spend $1 a day on food in school...before u know it...i'll have a strong and muscular body....=)

was having lunch the other day in school, i pause for a moment before i begin eating...my friend suddenly shouted " don't tell me you praying? " and he started laughing....
i was quite affected by it...i'm quite upset that some people being a christian themselves would actauly spike me, thought i'm not very sensative to this kind of thigns but i believe there should always be a line drawn..arh..okie i feel better now after saying it out..haha

pamela went to hong kong...and there's no one to gossip with me about church now..hahha
i know it's bad...but gossip is really fun Most of the times..haha
the verse of the day for me today was "everythign is permissible for me, but not everything is good" there are many thigns we are given the decision to make...God can't stop us...but we msut make sure it doesn't harm us...=)

arghhi wanted to ttype more..but my eyes are shutting...update otmrow
take care~
Tocky

Dearest Brother...

dear qing shun, sorry if i've been neglecting you...but believe me i felt the distance months ago...
that explains why i kept going to see u at the stall the chat with you...because i knew if i didn't, our friendship would drag apart...most of the time you are working and i assumed u did not have time to go out, that's why i din't bothered to ask u..i'm sorry...i know u won't bother listening to my explaination or perhaps won't believe me...and you are very sad and very angry...but i hope u will not put this 6 over years of friendship into stake...i

i promise u, it's not about religion...we always respected each other religion...and i believe religion should never be at the centre of our friendship...i respect yours...and i know from the beginning u had always respected mine...thanks for sharing whats in your heart..

it's this things in life that we experience in our frinedship which holds us together...i hope you are willing to give this friendship another go...in the gang, u are the closest to me after blenheim..catch up with your very soon...

with love,
Lionel...

Wakeboarding!
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i'm Lovin It...

sorry to take so long to update...there seems to be soemthign wrong with my keyboard,
i can't type!! i have to use my sis laptop to update my blog, which can be frustrating at times...
i somehow have inspiration to write only when using my own keyboard...=P

oh yes before i forget! let me wish all my muslim friends and indian friends! Selemat Hari Raya
and Happy Deepavalli !!! hohoho..peter selvan...becasue it's deepavalli...i forgive you for *TREATING*
me...

went wakeboarding yesterday! and it was very fun!! i finally know how to move left and right of the boat...
hah~ =) i lurve the sea...so nice to just be soaked in it...will post the pictures when i get it from tracy..
so just be VERY VERY patient...hah!

today went to sean's house to have dinner..what a wide spread! prawns, steam fish, brocolli with
mushrooms, mixed vegetables with scallop, hairy melon, chicken wings, ma po tofu, dou miao...
still ahve fruits...my beautiful tummy almost exploded...okie..i better not share with u all what maple
did after dinner...in case she hamtum me..haha oh yes!

blen dad is going to teach us power boating..i guess none of the gang is interested because none of them is into sea sports..
so i guess i'll go learn alone from him already..blen dad also told me he can train me to be a power
boat insturctor...that is so cool...i've always dreamt of driving a boat with my future wife out to the sea
to have a candle light dinner..haha...with this powerboat license i can also drive jet ski...
my goodness..this is so exciting..how nice if my dream house is by the sea and have a boat
just out the garden...okie..back to earth..study hard...-_- and start saving!
my life is no way but the highway..haha...

another crazy news! me and my friend will be representing singapore poly
in "The Singapore River Raft Race 2006" haha...we are currently looking for sponsors for the build up
of the raft and price money if we win..for that we will advertise on our boat..=)
please support me!!! =) any of your parents or friends parents interested in publicising...
their company...dun hesitate to call me..=)

life is so precious...alot of us dun realise it till it's too late...take care everyone...
in the end, i want to be standing, at the beggining with you...
Tocky