Is it just me?

Woke up super early today for church...i was so unprepared to go church today....for class, we carried on the teachings of biblical faith and natural/human faith...my mind drifted away halfway... there were too much on my mind...sigh...

sometimes i wonder why am i still holding on to the promises of God...and i just don't understand why am i still believing and trusting God...
i just don't understand...u may say it's my faith...for God..but in my heart do i really have that strong faith? it seems that my faith for God is even smaller then a mustard seed... God...i dun understand....why? why am i trusting you? why am i still following you? are you really there? come one! give me a smile from heaven! many people around me stumble and fall...but why am i still standing? it's NOT because of my faith, it's somethign else...something i don't understand... seomthing you had rooted in my heart... what is it? or is it to feel the emptyness in me that i come before you? or am i expecting something in return? maybe everyhting was an act....

Love is seen though actions...and not what we say, or what we sms everyday to our loved ones...
if someone u know comes up to you and says..."i love you" does he/she actaully loves you?
words u say are from your mind and mouth...BUT...actions you show are from your heart...
be it a small gift or just being there for the person...even if there's no response from that person...u perservere on...because.. Love does not fails..ARRGHHH...God...Do i love you?

*Impression without Expression is Depression*

today during lunch, my cell group shared 6 blessings snow skin moon cake...durian, orea, rum and raisin, green tea, pandan and black sasemee flavour..yumyum...i bought moon cakes for the gang...it cost me a bomb..and it's coming out from my pocket money...
and kientat...please stop saying i have alot of money..because i DON'T...u don't have to be rich to buy thigns for others okie...maybe i splurge too much...but becuase i don't mind spending for the people i love alot...and not because i have too much cash to spare...u understand? hey! so if u receive losta stuff from me...it shows how much you are to me...if u recieve nothing...hmm, err....k la, still love u a bit la..=)

The winner is not the one who finishes the race...BUT finishes the race with the torch BURNING...

Study smart!
Tocky